Who can give me some eye-opening advice..I'm so lost emotionally?

your bf cannot trust you. I dnt thnk any relationship can survive withoiut trust, been there many times. Look for a person that will bring joy and happiness and not a person who doubt you. yes he might have had bad experiences in the past, but its not your responsibility to convince him. this is not good for you, nw its even distructing you from your academics_are you going to allow a guy with insecurity problems to jeopardize your future? think abt it.